What is it all about?

So what is up with people? People who have to have things there way. People who want you to be thoughtful about there needs but then turnaround and slap you in the face when they seldom think about yours? Something about always having to be in control i think. I don't give a shit what is what. I know one thing I don't like to be told what to do, how to do it or what i SHOULD do.

Then the thought is, maybe to get along in this chaotic world we live in i have to make some sacrifices. I get so angry and pissed off and I hold it all in so at to not upset people, but then i get over it because i would rather not loose them then yell at them and be searching for them later.

I guess it goes to the fact that I have a hard time letting things go. Today i got pissed from the moment I woke up and i couldn't let it go all day. I finally got over it like 8 hours later, but still when i think about it i get that feeling in my gut. That feeling that makes you want to pick up a fucking pick axe and take it to every window in the house. Then once all the anger and rage is gone it is disgraceful to go around the house and see all the money you are going to have to spend replacing the windows and how much time you spent having to clean up the broken glass. Worst of all is the blood dripping down the wall from the cat that mistakenly ran between the pointy end of the pick-ax and the wall...oops. Anyway i have found, even though i don't do it hardly at all, that writing is the best way for me to displace my frustrations about people and life.

There is no cure however for the morons on the road. I get so enraged driving among idiots and having to weave in and out of traffic because no body understands the concept of the left lane being a passing lane not a "fast" lane. Anyway i can't wait for summer where hopefully i have a job and all i have to worry about it going to work , surfing, going to shows, and hanging with my girlfriend. well till next time see you later, if you cut me off on the road i might break all your car windows, so sorry in advance.